One Sip at a Time ❤️

Good morning let’s go back in time its October 29th and I’m going into the hospital to be induced with my baby girl. I was 41 weeks. I got there and they had to push me through the whole thing up to 6 centimeters. That was rough to say the least. My body just didn’t want to go into labor and she wasn’t helping at all. There were some really scary times when I almost had to have a c section because she was stressed. Luckily I was able to avoid it. As she was coming out the doctor asked me if i wanted a mirror I said definitely not just get her out! His face was happy, minimal tearing then all of the sudden his face went “oh shit”. I asked him what was wrong. He was like she turned at the wrong time but everything is fine. This was to not cause me any more stress. She was finally born on Oct 30th 2012. What came after was not fun. After being up and in pain for so many hours I was happy but exhausted. A nurse came in and looked at the tear and she was like I’m gonna have to repair this isn’t the OR. Usually I freak out when it comes to surgery but I was like okay let’s do it. I just wanted to sleep. Turns out I had a 3rd degree tear on the inside. The lining between my butt and vagina was torn almost paper thin. terrifying if I do say so myself. It is supposed to be like 3 to 4 inches thick and thanks to her shoulder I almost had a bigger problem. I went to the OR to repair the tear and I healed nicely. Vaginal birth is hard but my little boy was born with an Emergency c section and let me tell you how I would go through a vaginal birth all over again time and time again then to ever have a c section ever again in my life.

Onto my sons birth story 

My son was a surprise to me and my boyfriend but we were so happy at the same time. When we found out we were pregnant it was scary because I had a miscarriage a year before with my ex husband and I was so scared that there wouldn’t be a heartbeat or I would have to go through that trauma again but luckily that wasn’t the case. My body doesn’t handle pregnancy well in the slightest. One thing I failed to tell you about my pregnancy with my daughter is I had Hyperemesis. What that is, is you have to be medicated to not puke every second of every day. With Cadence I was actually hospitalized for a week because it got so bad. When I found out I was pregnant with Elijah I knew I had to get ahead of the ball. I still had some bad days with him but I was able to stay mostly on top of it. With him I also became anemic so I had a lot going on. and I do take care of myself but my body just can’t handle it. He was born at 39 weeks exactly. I went to the bathroom and all the sudden there was a gush. I yelled at Kyle omg i think my water just broke. It’s 3:30 am April 2, 2017. I called my mom. She comes over because Cadence is obviously sleeping. We rushed to the hospital but I wasn’t in a huge rush because I had no pain. When my water broke with Cadence that was a turning point of the pain so I was a little concerned. We get there and I get checked in and they do an ultrasound…. He was head up feet down. I went into a panic attack because the last thing I wanted was a c section. they couldn’t turn him because he kicked out my water. I was out of options and I just had to go with it. With most c sections they can give you an epidural but I can’t have one because I have too much nerve damage from my back surgery. I had to be completely put out. The last thing I remember before they knocked me out was tell the nicu to be ready in 3 mins and lights out. Now onto afterwards. C sections are not easy. To whoever thinks that, get outta here. I woke up in my room with little Elijah and his head had so much hair he was beautiful. I was coming out of the anesthesia and getting on pain meds because if you don’t know c sections they go through layers of muscle and tissue and you get all of that re stitched from the inside out. The pain was horrible not to mention if I had to cough or throw up which I did and had to be given more meds so I would stop throwing up afterwards. You had to put a pillow to your belly because it hurts so bad. I was able to get out of the hospital on day 3 then less than 24 hours i was back in for a high fever turns out i had a uterus infection. The doctor told me that if I hadn’t just gone home and the baby was at home he would have kept me. I got IV antibiotics then ones to take home so I had my two pain pills then an antibiotic so many alarms for all hours of the day and night. The birth of my son made me never want kids again. The trauma and the aftermath is something I never want to go through again. I also still have pains in my scar randomly. I’m beyond thankful that I have two healthy kids. That’s all I have ever wanted since I was young. One girl and one boy. Everyone’s stories are different but this is mine. I love both of my kids but giving birth is not in my cards ever again.